Entries for August, 2007

August 2nd, 2007

Happy Birthday to Me


Blahg
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In three hours it will be midnight and I'll be 51.  Okay I was born at 7:33 in the evening so technically it's tomorrow night.  The best thing that happened to me this year was the health scare that landed me in the hospital.  To backtrack to May I wound up in the emergency room of my local hospital thinking I was having a heart attack.  It turned out to be high blood pressure and high cholesterol.  (I've put on so much weight in the past year but that's what you get when you stop giving it back on a regular basis.)  I started walking (the requisite 10,000 steps a day and started "mixed martial arts" a few weeks ago.  I've never done anything so hard or challenging.  I really love it.  My son started yesterday and I hope he stays with it.  I hope in addition to getting me in shape it gives me the discipline I so dearly need.  I have all this creativity going to waste.   One thing I'm going to make it a point to do is to stay away from toxic people.  When I bumped into Mr. Nameless in Penn Station he was all gung ho to resume our "friendship".  Talk about draining.  (I've mentioned him before and won't waste anymore space on him.  Maybe some time down the road I'll have the courage to confront him and tell him that when you lend someone money (half lend half gift) and you are sitting on a quarter of a million dollars you don't say to me "if it weren't for me you'd be homeless...if it weren't for me you'd be starving...I didn't pay my taxes on time because I gave you the money (which still doesn't make sense since I've seen his bank balance). 

 

Lost my cell phone last week.  Also lost all my videos and pictures.  Now I know how to upload them--shoulda couda woulda at least I'm doing it now.  Fortunately insurance replaced the phone the following day.  And yes, it's worth it to get insurance on your cell phone.  The year I dropped it I lost my phone and had to pay almost $300 for a new one -- that's how they get you.  And speaking of cell phones I've now had mine for 11 years (obviously different phones) and it disgusts me to see people walking down the street yakking aimlessly about the intimate details of their life that no one gives a rats ass about.  I think the only reason you should use your cell phone in an elevator is if you are calling 911 because there's an emergency.  I would like to invent a device which would zap people's cell phone batteries in mid conversation and also extinguish the cigarettes of smokers who insist on walking down the street and polluting my lungs.  Did I mention that I was half a block away from the steam pipe blast?  Did I mention I've never been so freaking scared?  And so it goes

 

 
Currently listening to: the air conditioners
Currently reading: the crap I wrote
Currently watching: ignoring Lifetime Movie
Currently feeling: my own mood
Posted by Blahg at 09:12 PM in Read All About It | 2 comments

August 3rd, 2007

And Haven't I always been told we are responsible for our own happiness


Blahg

I need to remember that as the people I live with totally did nothing special for my birthday.  I excuse my nine year old son because his father should have said at least make your mom a card don't say oh mom I'm going to make you card after you've gotten up or that you aren't getting one till 7:33 in the evening (when I'll be sitting in the Majestic theatre).  Right now I want to take two people who really appreciate me to Phantom after all I did buy three tickets.  As well as I'll be taking myself out to dinner since my husband didn't "save" enough money.  Same as last year.  One thing I will say is that if he doesn't get a full time job soon he's going to be getting an eviction notice.  I'm so sick of his excuses.  If I have to get a full time job again so be it, if I have to raise my kid on my own so be it at least I won't have the resentment I currently have at the moment.  I'm sorry I missed my class today.  I rescheduled for Sunday because I was up half of last night with the runs.  And my brother was sweet enough to offer to refill my Starbucks card.  Did I mention he's still one of the few decent human beings around. 

To the other people who are afar who did remember thank you.  You know who you are and are special to me.

Currently listening to: a/c and damn crickets
Currently reading: my whining
Currently watching: oh crap it's 2:42
Currently feeling: sucky
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August 4th, 2007

Post Birthday


Blahg
Okay so you sent me a birthday card and I replied with the truth.  That all the caustic remarks hurt me regarding the money and if he's now pissed off that I stated my feelings so be it.  I'm bad at confrontation but I can't deal with negative shit hanging over my head.
My birthday was low keyed bordering on lousy.  My only presents were to myself.  Took the family to see POTO.  I'm sorry I wasted the money and would have had a better time going by myself.  My kid got whiney, my husband was restless (even though he said he enjoyed the show) and to make things totally disappointing Michael Shawn Lewis has been replaced by a not too good looking not as talented guy playing Raoul and Howard McGillin is back as the Phantom.  Why they couldn't keep Gary Mauer is a mystery to me.  Well Howard wouldn't give up a good gig like that.  Mind you I think Howard McGillin is a talented man and he's drop dead sexy he just over acts when it comes to being the Phantom. 
I bought myself the Swarovski crystal pin I'd been drooling over on the POTO Las Vegas website.  It's the Phantom mask and the crystals look like dazzling diamonds.  The restaurant we walked into was too noisy for my son who wanted to leave (he was actually right but at that point I was hungry and tired) so we went to the low keyed all night diner in our neighborhood (which has excellent food).  Maybe by next year I won’t have to pay for my own birthday celebration.  One would hope.

Currently listening to: end of movie my son is watching
Currently reading: nothing
Currently watching: my con ed bill go up
Currently feeling: figger it out duh
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August 5th, 2007

Sunday Night Blues


Blahg
I'm sad that I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I knew that the time would pass quickly but this quickly.  I can't believe it.  I feel that kind of Sunday depression you used to feel about going back to school or going back to a job I hate (did I say a job I hate yep I do).  My birthday was a disappointment but I already mentioned that.  No cards, no presents unless, of course, I count the present I gave myself.  Just once I'd like to be one of those popular people who gets tons of cards and presents and well wishes.  I'm feeling more alone than ever and that sucks. 
Currently listening to: crickets and dishwasher
Currently reading: nothing
Currently watching: ice melt
Currently feeling: like shit
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August 6th, 2007

The Old Grind


Blahg

Here I am at boring work

doo dah doo dah

Here I am at boring work

oh dah do dah day (which I hope goes by very quickly)

Currently listening to: some ass listening to voice mail
Currently reading: list of crap I need for staples
Currently watching: fan blow
Currently feeling: I want to go home
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August 19th, 2007

so


Blahg
The reason I don't write in this damn space more often is because no one cares about what I have to say anyway.
Currently listening to: what not to wear
Currently reading: nothing
Currently watching: what not to wear
Currently feeling: duh
Posted by Blahg at 08:47 PM in Read All About It | 2 comments

August 22nd, 2007

Peace and Quiet


Blahg

All the asswhipes are out of the office doo dah, doo dah...

Currently listening to: the sound of silence
Currently reading: nothing
Currently watching: nothing
Currently feeling: happy
Posted by Blahg at 12:59 PM in Read All About It | Add a Comment

August 23rd, 2007

Perfect Working Day


Blahg
My ideal day would be if you didn't come into the office.  It's not that I mind working it's that it takes you three hours before you decide to give me anything. 
Posted by Blahg at 01:01 PM in Read All About It | 1 comments

August 31st, 2007

Dear Loser Ex Boyfriend of My Special Friend


Blahg

Dear Loser, AssWipe, Wimp,

I'm writing this in defense of my good friend -- who doesn’t need me to defend her -- but seeing how much pain you caused her and wanting desperately for years to tell her to dump you (and couldn't because unfortunately it would have alienated her) I'm responding to your angry, childish and unfounded accusations on your Blog.  You are such an ass you would have your Blog on My Space.  My Space is for losers or people who can't afford to be hosted.  Since you brag about your so-called wealth, you could afford a Blog that doesn't advertise acne cream or High School Musical 2.  Therefore, you must be a loser.  Although I knew that years ago.

First of all if you are going to accuse someone of something -- like not being able to articulate,and having poor command of the language let me just say that people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones.  I counted a treasure trove of misspelled words and your grammar is deplorable.

Face it you are angry that she dumped you.  YES, SHE DUMPED YOU.  You who thought (and think) you are still the world's gift to women (A LEGEND IN YOUR OWN MIND) I have a news flash for you.  You are a guy with average looks, and below average intelligence.  Not every woman wants to have sex with you.  As a matter of fact looking at your pathetic self you would be described as what I used to hear guys call a "mercy hump."  There's also an expression that goes "the ones who talk the most do it the least."  I suspect by your braggings that you have spent many a night with Mr. Palm. 

She was too good for you.  She was sweet and giving and gave you her entire heart and you saw fit to treat her like crap and stomp on her heart over and over again.  It was finally when, for the umpteenth time, she was gasping for breath that she dumped your sorry ass and found a sweet decent, loving man who was waiting in the wings for her.  The guy you call an uneducated gorilla.  Listen loser her new guy has more class in his left pinkie toenail than you do in your entire body. 

And, of course I guessed correctly about your yet another money making scheme -- not being virtuous to help a friend as you said in December but saw dollar signs in your eyes.  Dumbass you could have wound up in jail.

She's rid of you and I for one (I think many of us) are happy.  I just hope you find someone who is deserving of you and treats you the way you deserve to be treated.  Water seeks its own level and you are sewage.
Currently feeling: ha ha ha
Posted by Blahg at 05:15 PM in Read All About It | 2 comments
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