January 20th, 2009
GET OUT
Can I stick to my guns? I have asked my husband of almost 12 years to move out. The facts are as follows:
He has refused to look for gainful employment. When our son was younger I didn't expect him too but now that our son is 11 it's time. I have asked, cried, gotten angry, begged and nothing has seemed to work. Last night I found his diary (found ha he left it on the bookshelf) and wrote horrible things about me. That I was crazy, that I was a drug addict, that I was an unfit parent the list went on. I often said to him that if I threw him out he would have to get a job to pay for a place to live and pay child support. So now it's going to come to pass. I'm scared. Truthfully the idea of being alone scares me. I mean I've always been the one to support us etc and have never relied on him for any of that but now he won't be around to do the liittle things on the rare occasions he does them. Our son probably won't because bottom line is that he doesn't like his father either. He doesn't like the fact that his father is lazy and won't look for work. I even sent the SOB to driving school to get a CLD and still he uses the excuse no one will hire him without experience. Well gee buddy try agains. I feel sick to my stomach. This drug addict just took two tyelenol 3 for the pain in my head, back and legs. I feel upset, numb what have you. This is the only way I can get rid of someone who doesn't pull their weight or make them step up to the plate.