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I’m miserable with a headache.  I wish I had just taken the rest of the week off.  Unfortunately it would have meant that I was stuck in my house and being around any members of my family right now (with the exception of my cats) does more harm than good.  I can’t stand my husband; my son has become a sullen brat.  I’m told it’s the age.

So put upon Martyr Daisy has the nerve to say to me take a break come to work.  She acts as if she’s the most put upon person in this place when in actuality she spends ½ her time on the phone with her boyfriend/family/friends or shopping on the internet.  And she whines that she’s the only one who is “watched”  I wish I could tell her what I really think of her but I have to work with her every day and it’s not like I can go to another department.  Meanwhile her best friend, who we all gave birthday presents to today (I said I have to rethink the coming to work on my birthday thing) is her friend today because she’s not bad mouthing her.  Give it a few days and she’ll have something negative to say.  Just like I’m sure I was the first course at lunch yesterday. 

Amber just texted me back.  Finally.  I don’t know why her friendship is so important to me as I’ve had to beg for it.  Bottom line is I really like her and think there’s something the potential for something there.  I need friends.  I have no one else.

Pizza party for Monica today.  I’m glad she liked her present.  Now if only I was invited to her party.  Why do I want to be invited.  Because I do.  I feel as if no one wants to play with me.

So fucking asshole prick boss tells me that I didn’t print out his fucking document the way he said he told me to.  So not to make waves I said I misunderstood.  If he’s going to take his bad mood out on me today I’m going to take mine out on him.  I just got my period added to the litany of shit above. 

I got my period an hour ago.  At work which added to all the fun I’m having.  Last night I had a fight with my idiot husband.  Then I had a fight with the idiot “support” person at Dell.  Is it me or are people becoming more stupid.  I’ve always hated stupidity but it seems lately that it’s being served up with seconds and thirds.

I want to go away for a few days.  I wish I could go back to the monastery I went to years ago for a yoga retreat.  There was a cottage on the lake and I had this amazing room all bright, quiet and sunny.  Right out the door was a living room with a working fireplace.  I also used to have the OA retreats.  At least it got me away even if it was “work”. 

These cramps bite.  Tylenol 3 to the rescue.  Thank goodness I’m good enough at what I do to fake it at work. 

Didn’t help all that much.  Pain is still enough and I’m bleeding like a stuck pig.  Okay how does a stuck pig bleed?   If anyone cares this has been written over the course of four or so hours. 

Daisy is yakking in Spanish (for a change) to boyfriend or family member yep she’s the busiest one in here all right!